Agonizing voice once again...

"That voice is back, louder then he was before. I feel weak, helpless, alone...Im fully in his grasp for him to tare me apart, break me down, destroy me... That agonizing voice rings through my ears. I didn't mean for that to happen, for that one action that was entirely my fault. It was an accident, but that doesn't mean anything to him. No mater how hard I try to block out his painful words and insults, he still echos in my head. I'm too weak to ignore him. He calls me 'worthless'. He tells me that I should suffer for my actions. He tells me that there is nothing that can be done to fix it. As he shreds though my being, he whispers: 'It is all your fault. You should suffer for that actions that you have inflicted.'

"With what i could muster, I screamed, trying to drown that voice in my head with my own. I continue to hold my ears closed as I continued to empty my lungs, yelling out my anger and sadness... No sounds after that. I catch my breath, his words vanished... So much pain and sadness he causes me for my screw ups, my mistakes... He only appears when Im down and helpless. But I continue to remind him that this is my body. I own this body. I don't want him to hurt it or cause me guilt and pain. My body is my temple and I forbid him and negative energies to enter it.

"All I can do now is breathe slow, take it easy, think clearly. Problems are like puzzles: You need to solve them slowly and with cautious. What helps is to have someone right by your side... Ill call my friend now...She will keep that demon at bay."

Everyone has demons in their head. The only way to control them is to relax and clear your mind. Empty your bowl full of worry and have it starve. Be at peace with your mind and body. You are in control.


Agonizing voice once again © 2010 Alex Cockburn